Ever since I met Jason I keep telling myself...I can't wait until next year when things start calming down. That year arrives and nothing calms down, so I say it again and again no calm (at least it never feels like it).
Jason graduated from NCOA and we had a blast seeing him again and celebrating with him. We got a nice break thanks to a wonderful family friend who watched the boys for us so we can go to the graduation dinner. It was gorgeous in Colorado and we were so glad to have Jason home.
Then came the holidays, a trip to Wisconsin for Thanksgiving, Christmas and at the same time a move.
As you all know we bought our first house in a small town just outside of Rapid City, SD.
Cody turned 8 while in Wisconsin and right after Christmas Wyatt turned 6.
I have pictures that will help explain all of our happenings and hopeful get them up soon.
We are having trouble getting Cody's baptism scheduled (we did but had to cancel due to Jason's work schedule). I am hoping in a couple of weeks. Also, now that he is 8 he has also been going to cub scouts. Last Wednesday he got to officially participate in the Pinewood Derby. He did not win but he did great for his first.
Today I am not feeling 100%. I have so many emotions running through me. I actually have been pretty emotional for the last few weeks or so. So much change all at once is affecting me in a bad way. I want change but some peace and quiet. What I really want is change within myself. Not that I consider myself a bad person but there is always things I wish I could make better. With so much I want to fix about myself I am really having a difficult time focusing on just one thing and doing it.
I am also beating myself up today because for the 5 years I lived in Alaska I never took the time to visit some family I have there. My Grandmother's younger sister moved to Alaska many years ago and had her family there. So, when we found out about moving to Alaska I immediately contacted my mom about my Aunt. We did send letters and exchanged Christmas cards but that is as far as it went. I never took the time to meet her. I just assumed there would be time. Well, there is no more time. I wasted it. I received the news this week that she had passed. She had a stroke she just couldn't recover from. Her funeral is today and I just don't know how I am supposed to feel. How does one react to the loss of a family member but one that you didn't really know? I wish I knew the answer. All I know for sure...in about 6 years when we move to Alaska for good, I will make the time to meet her family.
